R E V I V A L

Ok, so I'm still posting on my other blog, but what they howdy ho, I figured why not write here too. More then one medium to kick a dead horse to death right? I haven't posted on this blog in...well, forever. Things have spun away and out of my control.

Last I wrote, my grandfather had passed on and life was generally sucky. I've moved on since my Grandfathers death, and while I still miss him and yearn for his tales and hugs, I no longer sob my heart out thinking of him.

Econmy woes have everyone down in the dumps. It's happening everywhere and no one can do anything to stop it.

Right now, My g-ma is in Florida and I am watching her dog. Cute little bugger he is, if not slightly annoying.

The Princess Pea is still doing great. As is the Rabbit, Otter, and other people I associate with. I don't do much RP online anymore. When I do, it's mostly through emails, if I'm lucky.

I play Guild Wars. I play Perfect World. If your interested, you know how to contact me.

Guess that's it for now.

Me.

ok folks

So you know, I am NO LONGER POSTING ON THIS BLOG!!

If you want to read where I am posting NOW, you may look HERE -

http://adulationsslave.livejournal.com/

Thank you, and have a nice day!

A long night in the hospital

You know, ironically I keep writing here like someone actually reads this. I suppose it helps my own mental stability. But then, who knows. Maybe, just maybe, one of my lost friends reads this to connect with me. I don't know.

Spent last night in the hospital with my daughter. At around midnight she started gasping for air, unable to breath. I rushed her to Childrens. We get there, they take her in, do pulse and all that. Next thing you know we're put in a room, she's given steriods and a cool mist treatment. Then, she's given a nebulizer (sp?) treatment. Then they put her on oxygen since her breathing isn't getting ANY better. Turns out she has Croup, and we end up staying the night in the hospital.

They sent us home around 10 am this morning. She's doing a bit better, but requires constant attention due to breathing difficulties. She's to be watched carefully for 5-7 days!

I am worried, but glad we caught it early enough. Croup, can still kill small kids, and since my daughter is only 16 months...she's one of the lucky ones. Got treatment ontime, before it got bad.

That was my night. I think the new Childrens Hospital is BEAUTIFUL, but I'm sick of seeing it ALREADY.

Waiting in Heaven

My grandfather died Friday morning, and while I am not crying while typing this...my heart aches. He was a very special man to me. He was not just my grandfather, but my father figure. Perhaps I take this harder than most, He was afterall, in my life for 28 years. He means so much to me, and now He is gone. I just saw Him thursday, and He told me He felt GREAT! How can a man go from feeling great, to DEAD?! I ache, heart and soul. I know He no longer hurts. I know He was sick. I know He's finally out of the shell He was stuck in, and therefore in 'a better place'. That doesn't take the pain away. That doesn't fix what is in so many pieces right now. The whole family is going to a viewing today. Then He'll go to Arlington. I can't believe I'll never see Him again!!

My Grandfather - I love you so much. I will miss you and for ever and always remember the things you said. Your stories, your advice, your hugs and kisses. The wild horse, and the gentle pony. You are always in my heart, and I love you.

Mmm, Thoughts

So many things have been going on. I'm not even sure what I put in my last post. Of course, if I bothered READING it, then I Would know. Alas, I didn't...so I might repeat. Pardon me, if I do. The Rabbit is truck driving and appears to enjoy it. He starts His days at 3 am, poor thing. But, it keeps us in a warm home with food and all the basic's. Which, is always a plus. The Princess Pea is doing great. Can say 30 some odd words and is almost 16 months old. She has a doctors appointment in 2 days. Shots and check up. I'm already twitching about it. I've never enjoyed her going to the doctors. She's a great baby, until she gets hurt. Then, it's tons of tears. Fortunately, I will have the baby tylenol ready to calm her ills and kisses to take away her tears. My dog, a Greyhound named Raya, is doing GREAT. Took her to the Vet because she wasn't acting right. She was laying down alot, not really wanting affection. I was worried that it was her time to go. Since she's an old lady in dog years. And definately at the usual age point of surviving greyhounds. Turns out that she only has a bladder infection. SO, it's pills for her, 3 times a day until all the pills are gone. Yippee!! I'm doing good. Enjoying being a mother and wife. Loving life and definately enjoying all that I can do with my daughter. Part of me wonders if I could have another one. What with the complications of my first pregnancy, I only have a 25% chance of getting pregnant again. But hey, worth a shot right? I know the Rabbit would ADORE having another kid. He always wanted more than one. But then, He comes from a big family. My sister has moved out of Colorado, and I miss her. I hope she knows what she's doing, and even if she doesn't, I'm here for her if things hit the fan. Lord knows everyone needs someplace to run back to when things get bad. Of course, things might go GREAT for her, and if so, thank the Gods. She really needs something uplifting in her life. My daughter misses her, sometimes carries a picture of her around and mumbles her auntie's name. Hopefully that too shall pass. I suppose that's really all the news from my end. I definately can't say things have been dull. Which, YAY, is a good thing. All my love and blessings to you folks. Thanks for reading.

Stupidity

I must learn to remain utterly calm. Why? Because I am at current in a situation I do not desire to be in past my birthday. I want my space back. I want my world calmed down again. I want my child to have a normal everyday life. Furthermore, I don't want people coming and going at all hours of the day and night in my home. I don't feel it's acceptable. I might have when I was younger, but now I have a child to worry about. And she, is my first priority. Further, people aren't contributing to the household. Not in ANY way. That kind of ticks me off. When someone can eat your food, drink your soda, and NOT help do simple DAILY tasks, vaccum, do dishes, take out trash...I tend to get irate. Hence, my current situation. I'm toasted. I'm over it. I'm done. And, unfortunately, I am in a nearly always sour mood because of it.

Mmmk

So, things are finally ironing out for myself and the Rabbit. The Princess Pea recently spent a bit of time at the hospital. Aren't stitches FUN!! She's fine now, I lost my head when it happened unfortunately and told Tiger that He had to fix it. HAHA. Go figure. Seeing blood alone makes me queezy, let alone seeing my daughter bleeding. It wasn't fun for me. Then, go ahead and toss in Bobcat ( The Rabbit's little sister ) who is currently staying with us, and you've got a hectic household. Not to mention the fact she is dating Tiger. So at least I get to see Him more. Even if it is only long enough for her to jump into His vehicle. Also, heard from an old friend today, and was thrilled silly about it. I can't wait to see her again. Maybe someday soon. I can hope right? I suppose that's the minutes.