Upgraded

Alright, I've upgraded to the 'new' blogger method. Maybe now they'll stop bugging me so much every time I try to put a post on this dang thing about updating. Of course, that's just my wishful thinking. HA!

Another day has gone by, another few boxes packed away to be put on a truck and moved to Colorado. Personally, I can't wait. To be around my family again. To be around the usual insanity of them...it's a bright blessing for me. Once more, they open doors and hearts for me. Something I'm sure they tire of. I try to be of help to them, yet most times I simply fail in that effort. Nevertheless, they are there for me now, and that is certainly what counts. I've honestly missed them all. From being able to talk to my best friend, who happens also to be my Grandmother. To seeing my mothers latest thrilling read or, latest tangent. Knowing that the Bug will be around to annoy me endlessly. Heck, I even get to see my cousin! Definately something I can't wait for. I haven't seen him in awhile. What, at least a year or so? I can't remember. I just know it's been awhile. Time changes everything. From the way the road curves to the mountains that greet us when we look out our window as we pass by. Everything changes, and in this - so have I.

I have shifted from being the Leopard who wanted nothing more than to be happy. From the selfish, uncaring wench that I once was. With ( I am told ) a horrible attitude. To a Mother. To someone who has something more important than themselves to look after. To take care of. I always wanted to be a mother, and now I am. The sheer amount of joy in knowing that I brought that little girl into the world. That my arms were the first arms to hold her when she cried. That my lips, were the first to brush her tiny brow - these are things, memories that no one can take from me. No one can possible know my joy. As for each person, such joy is different. I know I am a good mother. I know I may be considered overprotective. I know that I have my rules and ways. I just hope that each of them, is right for my daughter...and likewise for me. The choices I make now, no longer impact only me. They impact the Pea. That, is something I will forever more have to take into account. Forever more, I shall have to remember that there is something more spectacular out there than anything else someone, anyone could offer me. My Precious Daughter. My pretty in Pink, Princess Pea.