The Party

So I went to the Halloween party. Mainly because Bran Muffin encouraged me to do so. Get out of the house. Have a bit of fun. Enjoy life. Princess Pea and I went as Faeries. As I said we would. She was absolutely adorable! Me however, well I kept getting caught in doorways since my wings were so large. I forgot my camera, so no pictures - however other people remembered theirs and promised to make sure that I would get copies. YAY! It actually wasn't a bad get together/party. Everyone had a good time. And as usual, my friend threw a pretty decent bash. Fortunately, it was mostly her family that came ( in laws included ) and I happen to get along quite well with all of them. I particularly like her sister in - law. A sweetheart.

Moving on, I have a FULL plate tomorrow. Got to get up early, clean, scrub, cook, and then get ready for My Guests to show up. Other then that, life is good. Today went well ( although I am officially BEAT ) and I can't wait for tomorrow to arrive.

Til next time all you boils and ghouls. Enjoy your Halloween, and remember...

Sugar High = GOOD!

A new format

Goodness, I hope this turns out alright. Of course, it might just be replaced with the old one in a day or two. However, I do like the 'top secret' thing. Thought it was cute. Not sure I edited it correctly, but I suppose we'll see. Today was a completely horrid day weather wise. Nothing but fog, rain and the occassional light flicker. So, the Princess Pea and I didn't even get our usual walk in. A shame, because that's typically a form of relaxation for me. Getting out, wandering around the park...it all works. Anyway, two days until the Eagle lands. I honestly can't wait, but then I've been saying that for nearly two weeks now I suppose.

In other news, I heard that my Grandfather is doing better. YAY! The powers that be know I worry about Him ( and my Grandmother ) I'm sure I will relax on that front once I get back to Colorado. Due to living with them for the time being.

Anyway, I suppose I ought to go shower and all that jazz. Supposed to go to a Halloween Party tomorrow with Princess Pea, and currently I'm not really sure I want to go. The weather for one ( I don't like having the Pea out in such chilly weather ) and for two, it's more like a get together for family, then a party. Ahh, I wish I were home.

Chilly days, rainy nights

Currently I think the outside temperature is maybe thirty degree's and it's raining. Making for an absolutely gloomy day. Funny thing is, is I'm in a great mood. Yesterday, probably not so much. But now? I feel great. I've been working on the house, making it look at least semi ok for when company gets here this weekend. It certainly wouldn't do to have anyone walk into a cluttered, or dirty house. The plan this weekend is to go to a Haunted House or two, maybe get some role playing in. Other then that, we're winging it. I still find myself looking forward to being around my family again. Letting them bask in the glow of the Princess Pea and myself ( of course ) while managing to get everything taken care of. I don't know how long I will be staying with my Grandparents. I don't want to put them out, and most definately Princess Pea and I have our own stuff and our own lives to be living. I know it will be difficult, however, I am up for the challenge. I am also looking forward to getting to see you guys again. The Tiger, the Sandcatt ( who I wish I could beg to touch up my tattoo's!! Maybe He'll see this and take pity on me! Besides, maybe I can pay him to do number 10. I have an idea and I'd like to see what He can do with it! ) and of course the Bug. On another note, Eagle has a blog - yet He's not posted on it. We must all rally and make him do so!! How dare he create a name and a blog to post comments on ours, and make nothing on his own!! SHAME ON YOU EAGLE!! Speaking of blogs - Cat and Tiger...don't you ever post anymore? I'd like to know at least what idle musings are happening in your life! Fare thee well my friends. Until I post another day.

All Hallows Eve

Halloween is fact approaching and fortunately I managed to get an outfit together for the Princess Pea, and myself. She is going as a baby Faery, and I found adult wings for myself. Therefore, I guess I'll be the ' Mommy ' Faery. On Saturday we are supposed to attend a halloween party, though I'm not sure that we'll stay long. Having an infant means plans are prone to change. But, we'll see. I hope all of you non posting freaks have a wonderful Halloween. No matter what you decide to do. Enjoy it, it's when we can come out and not get laughed at! HA!

Sold quite a bit of stuff at my garage sale, minus the large furniture items. I will probably take out an ad so that people can see they are still for sale. Never know who might want them. If they don't sell, I suppose the Bunny can just keep them. I'll get new stuff eventually.

The Princess pea is doing great. Absolutely wonderful, even during her cranky moods. I thought she was teething, but it appears that the offending tooth decided not to come out and simply sunk back down. So I guess I'll get to go through the crankiness again when she actually pops out with a tooth.

This weekend I get to see the Eagle again, and I honestly can't wait. It's nice to have him in my life again. Calming, grounding, wonderful.

Money, Money, Money!

Today is day two of my garage sale and not only is the weather cooperating, but I think I might actually run out of things to sell! It's going great. To top it off, the Princess Pea is being a perfect angel and entertaining herself with toys and whatnot while I take care of the customers! I can't believe it! This is (in all honesty) the first garage sale I've done myself and so far so good.If people keep showing up in floods like they have been, I won't have anything left for them to purchase. Heck, someone even bought a few of the nicknacks I thought wouldn't sell. There I go for thinking! If the weather is good tomorrow, I shouldn't have too much left to do. I was worried that I might have to make this a several weekend type thing, but I've been fortunate so far. Let's hope it continues!

Meanwhile, I've been thinking about alot of things. What I will do when I get back to Colorado. Who I will bother contacting and or speaking to again. Most of the people I called friend I've grown away from. We just aren't the same people anymore. Then there are the one's I've left behind because we used to clash terribly, and now we're getting along. But, we shall see. I can't wait to see my family again, and even more then that is the fact I can't wait for everyone ( bug excluded ) to meet the Princess Pea.

Eagle has been amazing through everything. A true friend and a shoulder to cry on when I need to. I know I prattle on needlessly about him sometimes, but truly, I am thankful to have him back in my life. He is most definately a grounding energy. Someone who keeps me level just when I start tipping dangerously.

Ahh well, back to making the cash!

Today's post brought to you by the letter W

Wah! What more can I say? Though I have to snicker and laugh at the banter going on between the Bug and the Eagle. Don't Eagle's feed bugs to their young? Anyway - Now that Eagle has 'permission' to be with me from the Bug, I suppose everything is hunky dory. HAHA! It is really sweet that my sister wants to protect me. It truly is. And despite the fact she doesn't think herself as being a SweetHeart. Her actions prove to the contrary. After all, she is being awful protective of me now isn't she? It is odd to me to have her being so protective. Due to the fact growing up it was I who looked after her. Now all of a sudden she desires to flip the page and look after me. Is that part of being family? Or part of growing up? Or maybe both? Either way, I am thankful she thinks so highly of me. But, I hope she remembers that Eagle was never mean or cruel to me before. He took good care of me and put up with all my less than charming traits. He stayed around when I was sick. He could have left. He protected me. Stood up for me. Helped me in more ways then even I can begin to describe. Then there is the wonderful feeling we both have around each other. Something that not even time can change. It's still there. The rush and press. The bubbling energy that threatens to break the dam. He's a good man. One I am glad, and even thankful to have in my life. Whatever the relationship is between him and I . But enough of that prattle. I will move onto what I am looking forward to. What I am doing. All that mindless jazz which I am sure you all ( who haven't posted on their blogs in quite some time..tsk tsk ) enjoy. I find myself looking forward to the end of the month. The Bunny Foo's date. Then there is the fact I will lay these cat eye greens on the Eagle once more. It's all so close, and yet seemingly so far. However, patience is a virtue. Just one I never seemed to have before. Of course, having a child gives you patience ( or forces you to learn it ) in spades. On the 28th is my friends Halloween party. I was hoping that the Eagle could be there for it, but alas, such isn't to be. So, she will have to deal with having just me and the Princess Pea ( who is going to be a Faery ) Each day I go through a bit more stuff. Trying to get everything together to sell so that I can fund my way back to Colorado. Well, that's not true. Princess Pea and I have a plane ticket already. It's getting the Pea's stuff back to Colorado that I am trying to accomplish. Wish me luck huh? If all goes well, Myself, Princess Pea and the stuff we desire to hang onto will be in Colorado in December. YAY!!!!

Goodie

My Princess Pea is officially 4 months old. Scary thing is, it feels like I just brought her home from the hospital and started doing this whole " Mommy " thing. However, I must say that despite the time that has passed. I still wake every morning with a smile. Because of Her. I am blessed. I am still talking with my Dark Angel, the Eagle. He and I have spent numerous hours on the phone just chatting it up. Exploring our new lives and enjoying that which passes between us so naturally. On a side note, the Bunny Foo has a date at the end of the month. Something which I hope goes well for him and the female He is taking out. Lord knows they could both use someone unlike their 'norm'. Yes, I set up my ex husband. Creepy? Maybe. But then it will give him a chance to move on no?

Worry Schmurry

It's been pointed out to me that I worry too much. Too often. Perhaps I do. Yet I find in myself that I am worrying about those things that affect me. I no longer worry about dinner burning, or chopping up a utensil in the garbage disposal. These, are little things. However, worrying about what will become of me and my daughter seems a solid worry. Something I should be thinking about. Nevertheless, worry I do. Worry I will until I have no reason to. On another note, I have been talking to the Eagle more and more. I quite enjoy our conversations and find myself looking forward to them. It is as if weight lifts from my shoulders simply speaking with him. Ok, you all can laugh, shake your heads and pick on me for that, but fact of the matter is, I enjoy talking to him. Being around him. I feel normal again. Beautiful. Intelligent. I'm not just the invisable mom. He makes me feel wonderful. A feeling no one can laugh at. I can honestly say in this, I am not confused. No, I don't know what will happen. But I do know that right now, I am enjoying what has come my way.

The page turns

Finally the Rabbit has decided to let me go. It only took a decade to get certain points to light. Now, regardless of what people might say. He is a dear friend, and the father of my daughter. So no sharing your ill thoughts alright? After all, He was able to give me the greatest gift of all. My Princess Pea. The great and mighty Squishy Marie.

The Eagle is still very much so in my life. We are talking on the phone, exchanging e-mails and even regular letters. Of course, those that actually know the Eagle know that a letter from Him is like finding something special and antique. Very Rare!

Today I also found out the Bug is now employed! To her I can only say congrats. That I hope it works out the way she wants it to. Save that money. Don't spend it without thought or regard. Don't give in to what others might want you to do with it. Make sure you put a certain amount away per pay day, and only keep out what you have to in order to survive. But, that is my advice. I'm sure she's already gotten tons of that!

I can also thankfully say that my Grandfather is home finally from the hospital. Though I am sure His life is changed. What with needing oxygen now. Puts a real cramp on smoking I bet! HA!

Ahh well, my drugs are finally kicking in. So, I shall end here and say simply that I cannot wait until I am home in Colorado once more.

Oh yes

Oh yes, I intend on being single for quite some time. Simply because I have better things to take care of then some simpering, whining, controlling, obsessive male. HA!

That is unless the ultra divine Matt came back into my life. In which case....all bets are off.


Anyway, had my surgery, so no more kids for me. I'm in pain, and I have to go lay back down. I just wanted to say thank you to you guys. One, for your advice - and two, for letting me know you are still around.

Tiger - Coffee sounds great, even though I still don't drink it. Hope you understand that my Squishy will likely be with me when we do.

Sandcatt - Great Advice. and don't worry, I intend to take it.

Bug - Don't worry, life WILL get better. Until it does, hang with Sandcatt and Tiger as much as they'll let you.

Is anyone out there?

I'm truly starting to wonder to be honest. As my life is right now a clustering of boxes and items too dear to part with. Further are the boxes of items that I will part with, sell and otherwise forget exsisted. Oh me...what can be done except to accept the current situation as it is? Even now, with such happening in my life my mind spins outward. Seeking the Eagle with such joy I shouldn't be allowed to feel.

Yet, feel it I do. Even with my life crumbling down around my shoulders ( albeit quite voluntarily ) I feel such things for someone who once walked away and played the part of never wishing to see me. Can I, should I accept that which fate has brought back into my life? Or should I spin around and walk away? I'm scared. Scared on what future may hold for me, and more importantly for my daughter. The Princess Pea is my first thought. For I will not allow her to grow up confused. That, is something I cannot allow.

Alas, it is time I part ways with this blog. At least for the time being. Perhaps another day my thoughts will have stepped from the fog. Yet I fear that won't happen until I return home to the loving and welcoming arms of my family. Moreso, that it will not happen until the Eagle takes flight once more. Where ever his wings might steal him.