Waiting in Heaven

My grandfather died Friday morning, and while I am not crying while typing this...my heart aches. He was a very special man to me. He was not just my grandfather, but my father figure. Perhaps I take this harder than most, He was afterall, in my life for 28 years. He means so much to me, and now He is gone. I just saw Him thursday, and He told me He felt GREAT! How can a man go from feeling great, to DEAD?! I ache, heart and soul. I know He no longer hurts. I know He was sick. I know He's finally out of the shell He was stuck in, and therefore in 'a better place'. That doesn't take the pain away. That doesn't fix what is in so many pieces right now. The whole family is going to a viewing today. Then He'll go to Arlington. I can't believe I'll never see Him again!!

My Grandfather - I love you so much. I will miss you and for ever and always remember the things you said. Your stories, your advice, your hugs and kisses. The wild horse, and the gentle pony. You are always in my heart, and I love you.

Mmm, Thoughts

So many things have been going on. I'm not even sure what I put in my last post. Of course, if I bothered READING it, then I Would know. Alas, I didn't...so I might repeat. Pardon me, if I do. The Rabbit is truck driving and appears to enjoy it. He starts His days at 3 am, poor thing. But, it keeps us in a warm home with food and all the basic's. Which, is always a plus. The Princess Pea is doing great. Can say 30 some odd words and is almost 16 months old. She has a doctors appointment in 2 days. Shots and check up. I'm already twitching about it. I've never enjoyed her going to the doctors. She's a great baby, until she gets hurt. Then, it's tons of tears. Fortunately, I will have the baby tylenol ready to calm her ills and kisses to take away her tears. My dog, a Greyhound named Raya, is doing GREAT. Took her to the Vet because she wasn't acting right. She was laying down alot, not really wanting affection. I was worried that it was her time to go. Since she's an old lady in dog years. And definately at the usual age point of surviving greyhounds. Turns out that she only has a bladder infection. SO, it's pills for her, 3 times a day until all the pills are gone. Yippee!! I'm doing good. Enjoying being a mother and wife. Loving life and definately enjoying all that I can do with my daughter. Part of me wonders if I could have another one. What with the complications of my first pregnancy, I only have a 25% chance of getting pregnant again. But hey, worth a shot right? I know the Rabbit would ADORE having another kid. He always wanted more than one. But then, He comes from a big family. My sister has moved out of Colorado, and I miss her. I hope she knows what she's doing, and even if she doesn't, I'm here for her if things hit the fan. Lord knows everyone needs someplace to run back to when things get bad. Of course, things might go GREAT for her, and if so, thank the Gods. She really needs something uplifting in her life. My daughter misses her, sometimes carries a picture of her around and mumbles her auntie's name. Hopefully that too shall pass. I suppose that's really all the news from my end. I definately can't say things have been dull. Which, YAY, is a good thing. All my love and blessings to you folks. Thanks for reading.